We ought never to do wrong when people are looking – Mark Twain
By Alison on Nov 22, 2010 in BIAY, craft, writing | comments(0)
Thank god, the writer’s block is OVER. Man, did that suck.
I’ve been working on a novel I am currently calling “First Lady and the Dead Presidents.” Originally, I had begun writing it in third person, mostly because I am not a fan of books in the first person. I think first person is incredibly difficult to get right and too many authors don’t have the right grip on the voice so it sounds (at least to me) contrived and over-written.
That being said, I was stuck. I had gotten a few pages out and had submitted them to one of my critique groups. The consensus was that, while it had a fairly good voice and really great description, there was something missing. The readers in the group were having a hard time connecting to McKinley, my main character, which was a major problem.
She came off the page as bitchy and overly mean. Her actions occurred without a lot of context, so she seemed flaky and selfish, which I guess she is in a way, but there was a lot more hurt and brokenness to her behavior that just wasn’t coming off the page in the way that I wanted or needed it to.
So I stopped writing and tried to figure out a way to make it work.
I had a fleeting thought to try first person but batted it away. Everyone knows that I HATE first person- why would I think that I could do it better than anyone else, right?
Well, I started to get thoughts and feelings about this book that became more and more insistent. Something was whispering in my ear that I needed to at least TRY first person and see how it went. I was under no obligation to actually keep writing in that voice, the whisper said, and I wouldn’t HAVE to show it to anyone, should I choose not to. What would it hurt?
And then one morning, I woke up and there were paragraphs and dialogue just sitting in my head, waiting patiently to be pounded out onto a computer screen, all in first person, and I knew that I had to give it at least a try.
And, damn it, it worked.
I think I’ve found McKinley. Her voice at least, and I think I’ve found a way to make her connect with the reader, even though in the beginning she’s making choices that are all about her and her needs. The whole point of the story is that she has to learn to let HER pain go and try to help others ease theirs.
Now, at least, I feel like the reader will see the potential in McKinley and not write her off as a selfish bitch from day one.
I have a crit group meeting this evening- the first one for a new group and I am WAY pumped, let me tell you- so I’m hoping for some constructive feedback regarding these pages. I’m lucky that these ladies read my original submission so they will know the changes I’ve made and be able to tell me which version of the heroine they prefer.
I have to say, though, I can’t wait until I get to Carter, my hero. I’m curious to see how he comes off on the page, now that we aren’t going to get his POV. Maybe I’ll need to make this a dual POV story, both in first person. Or, I could try her in first and him in third.
I have time to experiment and if this has taught me anything, it’s that experimenting can be rewarding beyond what any of us can imagine.
